Monday, January 31, 2011

aaawww yeeaaah
FINALLY in the 150's.
well... it's mostly because I'm super SICK right now.
and can barely eat anything.
MTV and bed all day.
But being out of the 160's by the end of January makes me feel great despite being sick.
149.5 and I'll be out of the "overweight BMI category"
7.3 pounds to be in a healthy weight range!

Saturday, January 29, 2011


I don't know if I'll ever get there.
but today's a good day.
only 215 cals so far.
F*** Food.

Friday, January 28, 2011


my body has stabilized at 161-163. Fuck that. I'm taking pills now to help me push past this bullshit.

Precision Extreme Lean: a fat burner which gets my metabolism going and also keeps me alert.

CLA: a pill with Omega fatty acids, designed to help target fat burning from the stomach and stabilize hormones.

I need to be in the 150s by the end of January... I have been saying 150s, 150s, 150s for so long... it is hard. it is fucking hard. But it's all I want. This is the hardest push I've had to get into a new weight range. But I'm gonna do it.

Tonight I'm doing laundry and reorganizing my closet and dresser. I also totally convinced my dad to get me a gorgeous Queen sized bed from IKEA for my birthday (in March, after I get back from the Dominican!)

Sorry I've barely been posting. I'm commuting between school and work which is taking a lot out of me... but i know that the more I post on this blog the more weight I lose. I'm going to try harder. I'm going to try harder in everything I do. I'm "grounding" myself on Saturday- I'm staying in all day and night to do homework. I'm cleaning my room tonight (and laundry) so that I'll like being in my room, it won't be gross.

I'll keep you updated on my progress with the pills. This is my third day on them, and so far I have noticed that I'm less hungry and more alert because of the Green Tea Extract.

hugs and kisses, skinny bitches!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I saw black swan again today.

I am going to redecorate my bedroom at my dad's house so that it is simplistic and inspiring. I am going to have a basket of workout things and clear the clutter. I'll then redesign it and hopefully buy some new furniture pieces and decorations. I will have this accomplished and my room being trim and sleek by April so that I will be the same.

I bought a lunchbox today that comes with bento box styled tupperware. they even have measurements on them so I know exactly how much I am eating.

I want to eat like a ballerina so I look like one. Vegetables and Fruit mainly and lean protein- mostly eggs, chicken and fish but not too much in a day.

2 more.
This is ridiculous....
                               I need to focus...
                                                        I need a perfect life.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Thinspo: Black Swan

 I just want to be perfect...

161.6 ... almost in the 150s... I just want to be perfect... I'm on my way to being perfect...

more thinspo after the jump
xo, K.

Monday, January 3, 2011

a new year

happy new year, lovelies!!!

i am so sorry i disappeared for so long
but i am back!
(@ 162 lb)

2010 recap

since January 1, 2010 i lost 40 lb
i am proud of myself
i have to remember my accomplishments

2011 resolution

i have a slogan:
111 in 2011
(one-eleven in twenty-eleven)

500 intake daily
500 output daily
if i eat more, i workout more. 

details, please!
155 by Jan 31
145 by Feb 29th
135 by Mar 29th 
^ my birthday
125 by Apr 30th
then -2lb/month until... 
111 on Dec 31, 2011

i have a pink agenda that i'll bring in my purse so i can write down my daily food and exercise stats. Then I'll transfer the summary to my blog. I WILL keep my food log up to date so i can be accountable for the 500 cal intake. I need to lose the weight.

I went to the boy's for New Years day dinner- his whole family from his dad's side gets together to celebrate. I felt so much better this year- i was wearing size 10 jeans and a medium sweater. And I am much much thinner. Still, not thin enough of course. I am still overweight- but 40 lbs less than I was last January.

  I  was able to do some terrific sleuthing and finally figured out the sizes of the boy's sis and mum! His mom went on a diet this year, so she's now down to a size 4 (and proudly announced it too) and his sister is a size 6 (she put on some weight in first year uni but is also WAY taller than me). I am the same height as his mom so i absolutely must get down to a size 4 (by the end of April), and then try for a size 2.

I am so excited for this New Year. I have one more semester left of school and I will do well- I'm not making it a resolution because I am naturally motivated at school work. I'm saving all my resolution will power for my weight loss. 

What are your target goals for 2011?

I missed you all terribly, and hope everyone is doing okay!


Monday, December 13, 2010

Christmas Present to Myself: A New Plan

By the end of this month I'm going to be out of the 160's if I have to starve myself after Christmas Day dinner (which I probably will have to of course).

 Here's my situation for next semester: Monday-Wednesday I'm at university in my apartment, and then Thursday-Sunday I'm staying at my dad's and working at the pool near his place. Why am I crazy and doing a ridiculous commute to work during school during the winter? I'm graduating in May and totally horrified that I'm not going to be able to get a good job right away. This way I'm guaranteed to have a decent paying job through summer and for the rest of the year while I volunteer and beef up my resume so I can apply to jobs in museums.

 My dad has a nice glass scale that measures to the first decimal place so I'll be able to weigh myself accurately when i'm working. It's going to be hard to stay on track when I'm living with my dad (any suggestions?) but I think i'll manage. Starve myself during the day, have about half of the dinner he serves and it should be fine.

I'm also going to be getting my GoodLife gym membership upgraded so I can go to any GoodLife gym- that way I can work out when I'm at my dad's. I'm so lucky he gave me his old car, so I don't need to rely on his schedule to be free to borrow a car.

160s-size 12
         December 31 @ 159
150s-size 10
         January 31 @ 149
140s-size 8
        February 29 @ 139
130s-size 6
        March 31 @ 129

Breakfast- 1/2 grapefruit w/cinnamon & water
Lunch- broth (in a portable thermos) and salad, Diet Coke
Dinner-1/2 of the dinner my dad makes, or my own dinner: veggies in pasta sauce and shrimp.

I'll follow this meal plan and fast on days where I don't need to drive or work at the pool.

Workouts will be training 3x a week, doing kickboxing and cardio as much as I need to to drop the weight.

February and March are going to be tough months but I really want to be a size 6  by April, so it's worth it. And I'm not going to let my homework slide so next semester I won't blow my diet because of stress.

Starving my way to skinny <3