156.8
aaawww yeeaaah
FINALLY in the 150's.
well... it's mostly because I'm super SICK right now.
and can barely eat anything.
MTV and bed all day.
But being out of the 160's by the end of January makes me feel great despite being sick.
149.5 and I'll be out of the "overweight BMI category"
7.3 pounds to be in a healthy weight range!

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I don't know if I'll ever get there.

but today's a good day.

only 215 cals so far.

F*** Food.

pills

my body has stabilized at 161-163. Fuck that. I'm taking pills now to help me push past this bullshit.

Precision Extreme Lean: a fat burner which gets my metabolism going and also keeps me alert.

CLA: a pill with Omega fatty acids, designed to help target fat burning from the stomach and stabilize hormones.

I need to be in the 150s by the end of January... I have been saying 150s, 150s, 150s for so long... it is hard. it is fucking hard. But it's all I want. This is the hardest push I've had to get into a new weight range. But I'm gonna do it.


Tonight I'm doing laundry and reorganizing my closet and dresser. I also totally convinced my dad to get me a gorgeous Queen sized bed from IKEA for my birthday (in March, after I get back from the Dominican!)


Sorry I've barely been posting. I'm commuting between school and work which is taking a lot out of me... but i know that the more I post on this blog the more weight I lose. I'm going to try harder. I'm going to try harder in everything I do. I'm "grounding" myself on Saturday- I'm staying in all day and night to do homework. I'm cleaning my room tonight (and laundry) so that I'll like being in my room, it won't be gross.


I'll keep you updated on my progress with the pills. This is my third day on them, and so far I have noticed that I'm less hungry and more alert because of the Green Tea Extract.

hugs and kisses, skinny bitches!

xo,

Kaylie.

I saw black swan again today.

I am going to redecorate my bedroom at my dad's house so that it is simplistic and inspiring. I am going to have a basket of workout things and clear the clutter. I'll then redesign it and hopefully buy some new furniture pieces and decorations. I will have this accomplished and my room being trim and sleek by April so that I will be the same.

I bought a lunchbox today that comes with bento box styled tupperware. they even have measurements on them so I know exactly how much I am eating.

I want to eat like a ballerina so I look like one. Vegetables and Fruit mainly and lean protein- mostly eggs, chicken and fish but not too much in a day.

161.
2 more.
This is ridiculous....
                               I need to focus...
                                                        I need a perfect life.

Thinspo: Black Swan

 

 I just want to be perfect...

161.6 ... almost in the 150s... I just want to be perfect... I'm on my way to being perfect...

more thinspo after the jump

xo, K.

a new year

happy new year, lovelies!!!

i am so sorry i disappeared for so long

but i am back!

(@ 162 lb)

2010 recap

since January 1, 2010 i lost 40 lb

i am proud of myself

i have to remember my accomplishments

2011 resolution

i have a slogan:

111 in 2011

(one-eleven in twenty-eleven)

How?

500 intake daily

500 output daily

if i eat more, i workout more. 

easy.

details, please!

155 by Jan 31

145 by Feb 29th

135 by Mar 29th 

^ my birthday

125 by Apr 30th

then -2lb/month until... 

111 on Dec 31, 2011

i have a pink agenda that i'll bring in my purse so i can write down my daily food and exercise stats. Then I'll transfer the summary to my blog. I WILL keep my food log up to date so i can be accountable for the 500 cal intake. I need to lose the weight.

I went to the boy's for New Years day dinner- his whole family from his dad's side gets together to celebrate. I felt so much better this year- i was wearing size 10 jeans and a medium sweater. And I am much much thinner. Still, not thin enough of course. I am still overweight- but 40 lbs less than I was last January.

  I  was able to do some terrific sleuthing and finally figured out the sizes of the boy's sis and mum! His mom went on a diet this year, so she's now down to a size 4 (and proudly announced it too) and his sister is a size 6 (she put on some weight in first year uni but is also WAY taller than me). I am the same height as his mom so i absolutely must get down to a size 4 (by the end of April), and then try for a size 2.

I am so excited for this New Year. I have one more semester left of school and I will do well- I'm not making it a resolution because I am naturally motivated at school work. I'm saving all my resolution will power for my weight loss. 

What are your target goals for 2011?

I missed you all terribly, and hope everyone is doing okay!

xo,

Kaylie.